Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Things Can Change So Quickly…

And things did do that for me yesterday.

My best friend died yesterday. I’m talking about Molly, my Australian Shepard. It happened suddenly. She had a carcinoma (tumor) on her heart that had burst. The sack around her heart filled with blood. The pressure was stopping her heart from beating properly.

We got up at the regular time and found Molly to be listless and lethargic. She was coughing and had little energy. The day before she was fine. As the day progressed, she was getting worse. I got a feeling about her late in the afternoon and called my friend, Tom, to check her out.

By the time we knew what was happening and got her to a Vet, she had almost no blood pressure. Her Vet told us that the help she needed was only available at an emergency clinic. She was rushed to one immediately.

They did tests and the diagnosis was the carcinoma, but there were unknowns. They were able to tap the fluid from around her heart. She responded and improved, but only to a point.

Around 11:15 PM, we got another call from the Vet. The fluid had refilled the sack and she had to be tapped again. The Vet said that the leak was bad. We decided to go to the emergency clinic.

We talked to the Vet. The prognosis was not good. As the leak was so bad, she would probably have to be tapped two more times in order for the Cardiologist specialist to see her in the morning.

Molly was dying.

We made the final decision. She had suffered enough and we did not want her to experience anymore discomfort.

We went in to see Molly. She perked up when she saw her ‘pack!’ She got up and was seemingly ready to go home. But, She was so tired and lay back down. There was a sparkle in her eyes but there was also a sad dimness to them. My heart went out to her as I realized that the correct decision had been made.

We gave my special friend hugs, caressed her and said our goodbyes. I laid her head in my lap, as the Doctor came in and prepared to do his job. I kissed her head and petted her neck and head as the Doctor did his job. Soon, it was over and Molly found her final peace. The Doctor told us (when all was said and done) that we had really made the right decision for her situation.

Keep in mind that I am sad now over the loss of a good friend. She was my constant companion for more than 10 years. We played Frisbee, played ball, ran together, went jeeping together, took vacations together and many more things. She thought that she was the consummate taste-tester and often assisted me in the kitchen. As a matter of fact, we spent the last week vacationing together, jeeping in Moab, Utah.

I will so miss my friend, Molly!

Rest, my friend! Rest in peace!


Blogger Alberto said...

I'm really sorry about this. Sending you a hug.

12:16 PM  
Blogger Road Warrior said...

Oh god, Charlie, I'm so sorry. I hope your 10 years of good times with her will help you get through this very tough time.

12:16 PM  
Blogger Petraruns said...

Oh Charlie I have tears in my eyes reading this. I am so sad for you. I hope that in time you will be able to really enjoy the memory of such a great friend, but I know that right now you are just sad. A big hug my friend. You are not alone.

2:20 PM  
Blogger Kevin said...

I hope that. with time. all the terrible memories of the pass few days will fade away and you will be left with nothing but the wonderful 10 years you and Molly gave each other. Whoever said "Time Heals" wasn't exactly right. Time takes the edge off. Thinking of you brother.

2:29 PM  
Blogger sidfaiwu said...

I'm so sad for your loss. My thoughts are with you. I know how important my dogs are to me and couldn't imagine losing them. I'm going to go home and play with them now.

2:54 PM  
Blogger Ali said...

I'm so sorry... reading this brought tears to my eyes. Homer (my pup) will get extra hugs tonight as I think of Molly.

3:26 PM  
Blogger Nigel said...

Charles, I'm so sorry to hear your sad news. Its so sad to lose a member of the family, which is what our beloved pets are to us. Hope you start to feel better soon and think about the great times you had together.


3:41 PM  
Blogger Adam Tinkoff said...

Oh man. I am So sorry Charlie. At least you gave Molly the best gift of all, that is being a good human to her. There is no love more profound and no loss more painfull. May peace be with you my friend.

4:09 PM  
Blogger bobm512z said...

Prayers my friend, Its always hard to say goodbye.

4:12 PM  
Blogger RunWesty said...

I am sorry to hear about your loss. Remember the good times and take it a day at a time.

9:08 PM  
Blogger laserone said...

My heart breaks for you. I am so very attached to my doggie that I can't even imagine. Every time he gets even a little hurt or sick I panic. I wish I knew what to say, to tell you I've felt similar pain, but that it's not the same for everyone, and that "I know how you feel" is not true, because it's such a personal thing. Just know that as a fellow doggie lover, I feel for you. :(
~lauren-fl / 2g1b forums

10:28 PM  
Blogger ShirleyPerly said...

Charlie, I'm so sorry for your loss. But you still have all those wonderful memories and in time you will smile when thinking of her rather than being sad. She was a wonderful friend and companion.

4:24 AM  
Blogger D10 said...

I couldn't even read the whole post, because it breaks my heart. I know how much our dog is a part of our family and can't even think about anything happening.

Thinking of you!

5:25 AM  
Blogger peter said...

Awww. I'm so sorry for you & Tom, and I am so glad for me that I got to meet her. She was a beautiful dog, no doubt about that. I lost my best dog in Colorado to cancer at age 9 a long time ago, and I still think about Bert. Maybe Bert & Molly are runnin' together somewhere.

1:17 PM  
Blogger heather said...

I'm so, so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you.

7:31 AM  

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